I need to eat more.

It's late (of course) and I find myself in bed thinking about things I shouldn't be thinking about. I'm sure many can relate to the feeling of loneliness sometimes. It's a place where you forget about how much God wants you to talk to Him. It's where you keep digging a hole for yourself, just to sit in the dirt & wonder how you got there. You distract your mind with other things & try to fill up this hole with everything but the Savior. After being on the internet for too long (my personal downfall) I made the decision to listen to a little bit of Shane & Shane music because I knew that if I was going to be too stubborn to crack open God's Word, I at least can have somebody sing truth into my ears, just to force it in somehow because I know I need it. Of course, as expected, it brought me to my most vulnerable state (in case you're wondering, it was "Crucify Him" & "In a Little While" that did it) where I understood that I had starved myself all day, & I needed something, anything, to eat. I grabbed my Bible as fast as I could & opened it to Daniel, the book I've been studying.

Daniel & the lion's den. Classic Sunday School story. Being the fallen person that I am, I read it & thought to myself, "God, I want to be like Daniel & be such a great servant for you that you would shut the mouths of lions for me & save me." It didn't take me long to realize how STUPID that must have sounded to Him. Shane & Shane's song lyrics on Christ's crucifixion quickly popped into my mind & I suddenly remembered...HE ALREADY SAVED ME! I AM NOT SAVED BY WORKS! (Thank God, although I really would like to be as resolved as Daniel ;D). He provided us with His Son, what more do I need?? Daniel didn't even get to hear or read about Jesus' life on earth, how can I be jealous?? (Now I'm left feeling kinda bad for Daniel, HA!).

After I have this awesome moment I continue to read about the lions that tore up the satraps & their families before they hit the floor of the den, & King Darius, the gentile, singing praises to God. Wow. It's amazing how His word truly is alive. When He reminds you of how powerful & great He is, the thoughts you had earlier just seem so beyond foolish afterwards. He saves. He's gracious. He's near. He's beyond full comprehension. And yet, I continue to starve myself throughout the day!

In Shane & Shane's song "In a Little While" they sing about "unveiled eyes seeing glory untattered" in the New Jerusalem. I can't wait for that day because honestly, sin is exhausting & I'm sick of it. Having this feeling of awe needs to be constant, & I know there will come a day when that will be my life.

Daniel 6, Hebrews 4:12, and really, Colossians 3:2.

Maranatha. Come, Oh Lord.